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Wednesday, November 17, 2004

dreams - what are they?

So, I was sitting here at my desk right now, and I was thinking to myself, "What is a dream?" I know that probably sounds stupid, but do I care? That's a negative. Anyway, I looked it up online to get the full, blown out, explanation. Here's what I found:

"Dream"
1- A series of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations occurring involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep.
2- A daydream; a reverie.
3- A state of abstraction; a trance.
4- A wild fancy or hope.
5- A condition or achievement that is longed for; an aspiration

The reason I was thinking about this was because I have realized that I do a lot of dreaming. I have experienced every one of these "definitions" of dream. And it makes me really think about what I have done about these dreams. Or something.

Just two nights ago I had this great dream (first definition) about this guy that I used to like. He is dating someone else now, but that doesn't matter in MY dreams. We were rollerblading and holding hands and just having a fun time. And it was great.

Then there are daydreams (second definition). Daydreaming is something else that I do a lot of. I often sit, especially in class (oops!), and just dream these big dreams about being a singer and recording a CD or something like that. Ridiculous, I know. But hey, they're my daydreams.

Then there's dreams (third definition). A state of abstraction or a trance. Yeah, this is something else that I do in class. I won't have anything on my mind. I'll just sit and stare blankly at something, anything - just stare.

Crazy, so "out there" dreams (fourth definition) are my favorite. This happens when my imagination just runs wild with itself. I did this last night. So, there's this guy that I think is pretty good looking, and anyway, my imagination (being as I am a girl and at Geneva) went completely over the top. This is basically what went through my mind: "Wow, he is so cute. I wonder what it would be like to date him. Or marry him. I wonder what our kids would look like. I wonder if he's the guy that God wants me to be with. hmm...that's a thought. Though, probably not...he is younger than me, and I'm going to be done with school in a month. Yeah, he's probably not THE guy." Isn't that ridiculous!? I go from finding the guy attractive to wondering what our kids would look like. I'm insane. Honestly, send me to the asylum.

Alright, so this fifth definition of dreams. I dream of having a job - at a church - getting to work with kids - and letting God use me to show them Jesus. And I honestly feel like that's never going to happen. At the rate that my job search has been going - I feel like I'm never really going to get that place where I'm supposed to be. I know, I know - way to bring the whole entry down.

Prayer Requests:
* PRAISE - Dixon (my mentor) and his wife are having a baby girl!! yay! As my roommate, Leanne, said, "Aw, they're going to have 'the perfect family'. A boy (Aidan is 2 almost 3) and a girl (she'll be born in march!)"
* PRAISE - Leanne's back is getting so much better
* My Cousin Mary - she has a stressful life :( but we have thanksgiving break soon!
* My job search
* My last month at Geneva! One month from today I will be done!!

peace all,
~Jenna

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