what does it mean - to follow?

So, tonight at Agape, we were talking about seeking God first and then He will make all things happen. The whole, "Seek ye first the kingdom of God"...etc. Anyway, during the music time, I was playing my guitar and singing and all that - anyway, God was convicting me even more that I need to be in prayer about all this job stuff. He was convicting me that I really need to trust Him and let Him lead me so that I can follow Him.

And I know that everyone that I've talked with about jobs has been very encouraging to me and has really helped me out when it comes to wisdom about jobs. But, I still feel like I'm going to end up taking a job that I want and that God might not necessarily want me to have. And that is discouraging. But, I know that God is going to give me peace and joy and goodness and all that with the job that He has for me.

The toughest part is that Alabama isn't the only thing I have on my plate. My friend Dave, from South Carolina, was telling me about these two jobs that he can put in a good word for me. One of them is in South Carolina - the other is in England. England - the place that I have felt a tug towards for a year and a half. This is tough. The South Carolina gig is a youth minister's position. The England gig is a temporary (12-18 months) assistant youth minister's position. Both will give me great experience. South Carolina will give me a great opportunity to grow as a director. England will give me a great opportunity to grow as a vision caster and will introduce me to the English culture. How great would that be?

I am struggling so much with this. It is so hard. This brings me to my title - What does it mean to follow? What can I do? Where can and should I go? What am I to do? I don't know. But I know that I need to follow God. But I have to wait and see what exactly that means. Next week is the Alabama trip to check out that church and ministry. We'll see what God has for me.

Prayer Requests:
* My Leanne - She's in therapy for her back, she found out what the problem is
* Wisdom - AGH!
* Job Stuff - Alabama, So. Carolina, England, Texas, Where ever else God might want me
* My last 2 months at Geneva
* My parents - the whole "letting go" thing

peace all,
~Jenna