loneliness - the slowest death

So, today I was reading one of my roommates blogs. She has a quote that says, "Loneliness is the slowest death." I understand what she is saying. I have been in that place where I just felt like I was slowly dying because I was so lonely. It was like I was fading. I wrote a poem about this over 2 1/2 years ago. It goes like this:

I fade
Fade from this world
This fake world around me
Who am I?
Where am I going?

What is real?
What doesn't fade?
What holds true color?

I weep
Weep for my soul
My dying soul inside me
What happened?
What is going on?

I am shaken.
I am gone.
(c) 3-5-02

I still remember what I was feeling when I wrote that. I just remember being so empty and so worn down and faded. Faded...that really is the best word to describe it. Have you ever felt faded? It's not a great thing...at all. Though, you will learn. You will grow. You will be different on the other side.

Prayer Requests:
* My roommate Leanne - She is starting to recover. Her back is healing.
* My job search - I talked with the church in Alabama again today. Gil, the youth minister, said it's a possibility that I could go down and visit in a few weeks!! That's so exciting!! I can't describe the feeling of this! Amazing!
* My prayer life - I need to be praying more for discernment and wisdom
* My last 2 months at Geneva

Peace all,

~Jenna