i mean really - what does it all mean?

I've been receiving calls or emails from churches recently. It's so odd to think about. There are actually people that have seen my resume and want to call me and hear what I have to say. That's such a weird feeling.

But anyway, I've been wondering, what does it all mean?

What does it mean when a church calls me to pursue the interviewing process instead of someone else? What does it mean when I get excited just because people are responding? I don't understand it all.

I've been wondering what it will be like to live on my own. This is a thought that has been on the forefront of my mind a lot...seeing as I'll be done with school in 2 months and 2 days. But that is a whole other issue.

My cousin, Mary, and I were talking today about growing up. And it's just so odd to think about. When you're growing up, you go through these stages...grade school...jr. high... then high school. Now, once you've reached high school, it's the place to be. That is, until you're a senior in high school...then it's the last place you want to be. Then comes graduation, and you can't believe that in a few months you won't be with those same people everyday anymore. But you move on, because that's what you do. You move on. Then comes college...and it's this new place where you meet new people and grow and change into more of an adult. (Which is just weird to begin with.) Then comes your senior year in college. Or, in my case, your senior semester. And it all comes back around. Except this time, when you graduate, you're basically done. You move out on your own. You get that job. You provide for yourself. You meet that "special someone". You get married. You start a family.

I guess that's what I'm trying to handle right now. It's like...once I graduate and have a job, I'll be living on my own. And then it will just be expected that I get married. And if I'm not married soon after graduation...(according to Geneva's standards) I should be ashamed. Because apparently, the only godly men are on Geneva's campus. Maybe Grove City's too. But don't even get me started with that whole thing.

It's just hard to believe that I'm at that point in my life where people expect that kind of thing. Though, for the last couple of months, I'll go to church, and these two men (that are as old as my parents) that I've known since I was little, always ask me..."So, when's the wedding? You do have to get married soon because we want to be there." I keep reminding them that I'm single and content with waiting until God brings me who He wants for me...but they just don't seem to listen to that.

I don't know. This whole growing up thing is just so hard to grasp. What does it all mean? I don't know. And I'm not sure who does.

Prayer Requests:
* My Roommate Leanne - Her back is still in a lot of pain
* My Job Search - Texas, Alabama, South Carolina
* Wisdom and Discernment
* Financial Help! agh!

Peace all,
~Jenna